I'm not sure what I should post.
My life is pretty much boring as of now.

I'm learning how to use flash properly.
Here's a crap example of me learning.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v60/Mundinsandfury/test.swf
Sorry I got lazy with the arm. xD

That's all folks.

P.S. Kaila is the bomb and Jason is my dust bunny. x3
Oh.... and my ear has mostly healed, but who really cares anyway? Just a note.

Well... yet again another happy day was ruined. It's been so long since I've had a good day, been talking a lot with my sister and mom, decided to take some classes at the college, and go to visit my dad's this weekend. Oh and I got a wonderful makeup set that makes my skin look flawless. I thought I could never wear eyeliner until now. So for once, my day was pretty damn good. Then I started to try to take the backing of my newly pierced ears out, it was extremely crooked and too tight and I need to straighten it. I couldn't remove it... my mom offered to help but at first I was reluctant. I said, "You are going to end up pulling the entire earring through my ear!" However, I took the chance to let her help and you know what? The entire earring went through my ear.
Painful... Now I have this big hole in my ear... right when I began to feel better again about my appearance. It may not be that big of a problem but the big problem is... this kind of thing happens all the damn time. I feel so out of luck... I was just talking about this with my dad the other day too, "You make your own luck." That can be hard to believe sometimes. Did the people that recently died in that air crash do it on purpose? I think not... it was just a matter of bad luck. I really hope I don't go that far. I just get the little things constantly. I don't have many people I can talk to either. I have Kaila, Jason, Thomas. Most the time when I call them they always seem busy. Kaila you may think I'm so perfect but I'm really not... I don't have friends like you do. Victoria has rather drifted away from me...

Just a few minutes ago when I was really upset and felt so alone… there was no one to talk to, I called Jason but he ended up having to go because of work. I'm afraid to call most of the time because 90% of the time, it's I'll talk to you later or I'll call you back. I am always there for people, my friends but rarely are they there when I really really need them. They may be there for me and care for me, but the timing is awful. Sorry, this journal entry sucks but I'm just really upset...

I have finished reading the book, "A Kiss of Shadows” this morning and it was brilliant, powerful. I would have never imagined the fey to be that way. I had forgotten that I actually love reading... This book has been one of the best I have read in a long time; I am definitely in a rush to buy the second book to continue the series. I was though, extremely surprised by the sexuality of this novel but not displeased. It was actually incredibly enjoyable and amusing. Reading this has made me feel more adult-like. It can be hard to see myself as one considering my innocence and childish personality, but on frequent occasions, I can be serious.

As for recommendation, I urge you to read as long as your interests lie within the categories of Faeries, Horror, Dark, and Sex. ^-^

Today there was a long argument between my mother and sister... as always. They seem to argue every time she comes by the house, making things even more difficult for me; making me look bad in a worthless way. It's too much to explain on how I feel belittled by all that is going on. Mom asked me to talk to her and to say she is doing things wrong but then I was asked again to comfort her. Therefore, I did nothing, I don't really want to get into this kind of thing again, my main reason for hiding in my room. For that, I was called selfish but I don't know what I was suppose to say or do really. I wish I could help her but she is stuck in bad habits.

Me, I’m going through stress by simply not being able to interact with Jason as much as I used to. Thank goodness for my friends, if they were not there then I would probably be in a mad house. For now, Nicole, my sister has most of the spotlight on her while I’m being badgered at on the side for not growing up. I am not even yet out of my teens, I will accomplish my young adult goals before I’m the age of my older sister.

As for mother, this stresses her more than anyone I believe and it scares me. Stress does not deal well with an older heart.

Summer has begun and believe it or not this is the season where I'm actually pretty busy. I am already in the process of acquiring a tan. My cousin came in last week, it was disastrous but we did have our fun moments. Victoria came too, making the week, end well. Our day at the beach was nice and extremely hot, it was one of the most enjoyable days I've had at the beach. One downside though, I am going to miss my perfectly pale skin. The beginning of this month is going to be my summer lazy days, and then I will be up again spending my time with Jason mostly in the month of July, which is also the month of birthday. The transition into adulthood is not all hunky-dory Yar.

My journal entries are terribly boring. They always seem sad and start with, "I haven't updated in awhile...” Meh, I am actually in a good mood this morning oddly enough. I just happened to get a full night’s sleep. I did not get to say goodnight to Jason though, I'm not sure what happened last night. I have something exciting to tell him though and I am anxious and excited that I am about to turn 18. There are certain things I have wanted to do and could not before but in just a few months, I can! <3 I've updated my LJ layout, it's pretty and very me.I was thinking about getting back into the modeling business. I am extremely short though so I could not do anything extreme as I wish I could, just little things. However, as long as I am being paid, I don't care if I model jeans for Sears. Xp

I feel awful and I'd really like to feel normal again! Damn you Nyquil for not working for me!

Haven't updated in quite awhile but eh whatever. Not that much is going on in my life. I just recently started back to school and then all of the sudden I'm in extreme annoying pain. My wisdoms need to be removed. They've been hurting for a week straight and so "last week" I went to the dentist, did an x-ray and all that and confirmed that I needed them out. He referred me to an oral surgeon which my mother had to fight with to get an earlier appointment than a month from now. So I managed to get an appointment for the next week, I was kind of upset at that because they were really bothering me. It was more than a tooth ache; it was a mouth ache with sharp headache pains.

So earlier today was the day of the appointment, this oral surgeon wasn't even in my town so we had to drive all the way to Shalimar which took us about an hour with traffic and all. We got there only a few minutes late and as soon as I went up to the desk was greeted with complete rudeness and handed a clip board with paperwork. So after we filled out the paperwork my mom turn it in to the meathead lady, and then they got into the discussion about an x-ray, if we had brought an x-ray with us. Well we had a copy of an x-ray and all but we didn't think we need to bring that. We figured the dentist was supposed to send all that stuff. "Well we can't see here with an x-ray".

Mom asked how much it was going to cost to have another x-ray done and it ends up to being around 80 dollars and the evaluation was going to be around 150. Also the price range for the surgery is 500 - 1500. This is a pretty big freaking cap. We weren't going to pay that kind of money for just an x-ray so mom just asked if we could just set up a surgery date. "Blah blah we can't see her without an x-ray we can't setup anything blah blah". Fine then, so we reschedule.

"Next available is 23rd of next month." What the hell? I can't take another week of this and they want me to wait a month just to be evaluated?! Bullshit, we walk out and call my sister to have her look up oral surgeons in Destin. Sister calls back with an evaluation appointment set up with an oral surgeon in Destin for Tuesday, x-ray included with the surgery, surgery the following day or day after. No problem at all! I could have already had my wisdom teeth removed last week if we would have called earlier but no, we waited for the doctor that we were referred too. That meathead lady was extremely rude too, that place was more of a facial surgery place anyway. Death to the rip off artists. </3

Goodness it's been awhile since I've last updated. I'm just going to skip all the details about what happened these past couple of months but I'll just give a short summary. Basically, Jason came to visit me for my birthday then I went to visit my dad in Baton Rouge for awhile and just happened to be their when Katrina hit.

So anyway, yay it's October my favorite month! I love the fall and winter the best, gives me a good feeling. I can't wait until November though because I going to get to see Jason again for Thanksgiving. A week and one day, this will be hella enjoyable. <3

For some reason I haven't been able to sleep very well, I only had 2 hours of sleep in the last 24 hours and I'm not really that sleepy. Well actually I am sleepy but I just can't seem to... be sleepy? Heh, well I created 3 layouts today. New ones for livejournal, xanga, & myspace. I think I'll start working on my other two sites now, updating my paradise princess layout (on my site) just a bit and updating the entire site with content. I have a lot to put on it now. o-o Same goes for the lolidollies resource site! I made a pretty layout for it, just need help uploading all the content. Oh and, if you haven't heard about The Birthday Massacre you should check them out, neat band.

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I haven't updated in awhile. Every time I wake up I'm usually busy with something. I'm starting to work on an easier schedule for me (for school). So today I finally got out, went to wal-mart (Yeah I know, what fun.) and I bought a few things. I got two cds, Staind and Seether (I wanted to buy more but eh...) and I got this Liquid gloss by Smackers (Strawberry). It's really the best, omfg.

I also got the New Shojo Beat, Blockbuster is the only place that has them. o.o While I was there I wanted to get "Sin City" but they were out, which means! I get to rent it for free when it becomes avaliable.

I don't have much more to say for now, I'm going to be gone for a while though, visiting my dad's so until after then...


Toodles

I've got a lot of work to do with school and web designing such but I'm actually in a good mood. Jason came to visit for three days, three magical days! It was truly amazing yet very heartbreaking when he had to leave to go back home... but! We plan on spending Thanksgiving vacation together for a week, I really can't wait. It'll be extremely fun if he gets to go. I'll make sure he comes though. x3

I fixed up http://www.lolidollies.com a bit but I haven't done much to the main site since I've been busy with school, graphics, and messing around with PHP for my site. Speaking of graphics, I started a vector of Ayumi Hamasaki. I would like to turn out simple and clean but sometimes when it comes to vectoring over a person I just try to hard. Photo manipulation and designing in Photoshop is just more my thing I suppose.

Oh yeah, I almost forget. My mother gave me a new panda for my birthday made from a “Build A Bear” like place. Its call “Bears & Buddies”. There are never any pandas in “Build A Bear” or in the place my panda was from. There just happened to be one stuffed in the back for me. So it's very special to me. Mom kissed an angel, made a wish then stuffed it inside my panda. I decided to name her Emily.



The End.

I haven't written in awhile here. Hmm.. well lately I've been a bit busy with school and family. My birthday is actually one day away, I hope to get a new camera; at least 6.0 mega pixels. So far I've received a wireless keyboard and mouse. My father came in town not too long ago and bought me the new Harry Potter book and Princess Ai manga. The Harry Potter book is good so far but a few people have somewhat ruined the end for me even before I was halfway through. I haven't even started to read Princess Ai but it looks fun. I also need to finish reading Othello too.

I recently had my classes sent to me so I'm about to start working on a couple of essays. I need to work on my sites too but these past couple of days, Heather has been really immature and arguing about simple things that need to be taken care of or compromised over. Degrading me in front of my members of LoliDollies... Meh, I’m thinking about moving LoliDollies to another host. I can't stand to see something that I created in the first place become something I didn't want it to be. I really don't think she understands Gothic Lolita like I do or rather others do. Honestly I don't know what's up her ass but I don't care to talk about it much anymore. She can either get over it and compromise or have me move lolidollies.

In other news, Jason is coming to stay with me for a couple of days, as long as the weather goes okay. If not then I'm going to fly up there instead. We'll see what happens. I forgot to mention that lolidollies has it's domain now. http://www.lolidollies.com, so visit! I want lolidollies to be a really friendly place. I understand how some communities can be a bit rude. I'm very sensitive to rudeness, as most of my friends know. But as for good news, once I get my camera I'll be able to sell prints and my own designs. So I'll soon be able to buy more things for myself rather than things I just need. I'm excited about my camera mostly. Now on to write more essays. x3

I forced myself to wake up this morning to eat Belgian waffles, but really I don't know if it was worth it. I want to go back to sleep. I am sun burnt and parts of my hands are swollen from deep sea fishing, reeling up 80 feet with a heavy rod for 5 hours. It wasn't worth it either... one damn fish that I couldn't even keep. Well now that Heather (visiting cousin) is gone, I can work on the fourm better since she wasn't much help when she was here. I'm maaadd at her, she screwed up my photoshop brushes when she was working on her photomanip thing for this contest. Which I also decided to enter as well but now I have to reset my brushes and do a loooot of uploading.

Besides all that, I've read up to Othello vol. 3, I just need to get 2 more volumes before I finish. It's a really good manga actually, better than I thought. It might even be better than Paradise Kiss. Paradise Kiss was good but the ending was... mediocre? It would have been sooo much better with a different ending.

Jason just bought me this amazing skirt from refuse to be usual. It's sooo poofy and pretty. Many will be jealous, teehee. I'll be sure to take pictures when I receive it. I hope I'm home when I do though. My parents want to go to the Keys but they always travel the south. I don't mind traveling but I want to travel to New York, Chicago, LA, and places like that... I am so tired of the south. Jason doesn't like me to traveling much anyway; he always misses me too much. :P


Well that's all I have to say for now, I better get to work on uploading my brushes. ~_~

I've finally decided to work with my livejournal layout and start posting again. Bye Hiatus! Well this last week I've been uber tired and sickish because there are being hard wood floors installed in my house. It was only suppose to take 3 days but it's taken almost a week, ick. Now they want to paint so there will be another day of smelling crappy crap that makes my nose unbreathable.

In the past 3 months I've bought a lot of things... so when I get a chance I must take pictures of my latest purchases! Today I did go shopping though and got a couple of mangas... I was undecided between two different ones so I chose both, Di Gi Charat and Othello. They both seem cute but honestly I didn't find Othello that interesting when I was scanning through it… I hope I'm wrong though. At least the cover of Othello matches my new Summer Loli outfit I bought today. Tis' perfect for summer! The downside is that the stupid 19-year-old gothic wannabe casher person forgot to take the damn security ink thing. So nooow I have to take it all the way back to the store Friday, not tomorrow, Friday because I live so far away from that damn store, grrr. I bought other things to but I'll tell about them later on when I have pictures. ^^; Right now I should get to working on my Xanga now that I'm done messing with Livejournal. The layout is a bit simple but sometimes simple is just as beautiful. I was planning on doing a image map but my lj coding won't work with it so I'm putting it off for a while. That's all for now, bai buh.


Pwease join Loli Dollies if you love Gothic & Lolita stuff. :3

I realize my layout is a bit out of wack, it's oogly but my livejournal has been on Hiatus for the last three month but I plan on starting to update again real soon. Tonight I've got a lot to do dealing with my website and forum. As soon as I've got thoses things steady, I'll start updating and creating layouts for me and everyone!

Well it's Valentines Day, woo. I got up early to check to see if anything interesting is going on with Gaia. An event will happen later so wee, that's the highlight of my day I guess. At least I'm not at school watching others get presents and being loved one while I sit there bleh and alone.
I'm still a little tired, I think I'll just go back to bed till... something interesting happens.
So yeah, Happy Valentines Day!

I know I haven't updated in a while... but the reason for that is because I want to wait awhile so people comment on my entry. But that rarely that happens! You turds, the only person who commends is my cousin. It makes me feel like I have no friends. I see on other journals where they have tons of comments and crap. My goodness.


I'm mad, my mouse is being stupid and won't right-click. Rawr... I was suppose to go see Jason last weekend but I couldn't because my mom is... ... so now I've planned it for the end of February. February is suppose to be a romantic month anyway right? I'm excited to go~

I forgot something that should of told a long time ago. Something happened when my parents were out of town and I was home alone. They were in Shreveport, La... 12 hours away from me. It was around 10pm I think... I decided to take a bath, so I did. I was sitting in the tub, laa laa laa. Then I started washing my face, wash wash wash. Then... all of the sudden... I paused with my hands over my face. Something seemed different... what was different? It got darker... You can usually tell when your eyes are closed. I was like wtf did I go blind. I didn't move for like a minute. Finally I took my hands away from my face and opened my eyes, the power had gone out. Now when you are in the bath, naked, home alone and in the dark, you can get scared. I started to think bad things, like, what if someone turned off the power and then broke in? The power box was out side... x_x I stayed hidden in the bath for a few more minutes, quietly. I didn't hear anything so I quietly got out and dressed with out drying off. Went out of the room in pitch darkness... Then maxie jumped up on me and I was like. Weee, yay my puppy. We went to find a flashlight, I grabbed the phone with the cord thingy and plugged it in. Guess who I called? "Jassoon *panicking with paranoia" the power is out and I'm scared." After I told him I called my mom and told her, she told me how to turn it back on and where it was.. blah blah blah. It really sucked going out there too after a hot bath. It was all wet from the sprinkles, damn it! I was scared so I brought maxie with me. I couldn't switch on the breaker, it was stuck and flung back every time I tried to turn it on. I tried to get a neighbor to help me how. It was late too... I knocked on the door, no one was home. I called mom and she got another neighbor to come and switch it on for me. At first he couldn't switch it on either but after almost breaking it he got it. So I ran inside and called Jason, clinging to him in my mind. Woo it really sucked. o-o Oh yeah... the sprinklers at one point came on again spraying right at the box. So I had to wait for a long time till it ended. The worse place I want to be when the power goes out is in the bath tub, naked.